Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Looking Back and Facing Forward

This past week has been busy, by that I mean things have progressed rapidly past me. I am somehow standing in the middle of the road, looking backward at the curves and twisting pavement left behind. I have been pondering in my head and heart just what to do with my life.?? And those thoughts have turned me once again back to days gone by. I travel back to fifth grade, where I had a student teacher that loved for us to use our imaginations and produce stories. Stories that were about anything we wished, we had control of the topic. And though I am sure my fifth grade mind was not all that creative, I dove in head first, maybe even feet first, to see how fast I could get wet.
And now I fast forward a bit to my current vocation, being in the medical field of sorts, working in our local, and brand new hospital. Somehow, I took a few different paths, wasted a lot of years working hard physically in factories, and also putting my health at risk. So I am faced with the decision once more, am I staying in the medical field, or am I moving back to the love of my youth? And again I seem to be jumping feet first, a little more hesitant than I was in the fifth grade, but jumping none the less. I changed my concentration today from Physical Therapy Assistant to of all things, Journalism. Before I had the student teacher in fifth grade, I never thought much of writing. But after a few of my creative stories, she rapidly encouraged me to move on and continue to write more. Maybe I wasn't so bad after all?? lol. Maybe I was. ? But just the same, either or.. I have loved to write down things, feelings, etc ever since that year. I have kept journals, I have half heartily kept them. And even though most are very personal, I still keep them, and read them from time to time. And I look back to that little girl I once was and remember her zest for story telling, and I smile. Maybe I won't make a good writer, but ya know it really doesn't matter much, because published or not, it's a part of who I was, who I am, and who I am yet to be.
So watch out, let's hope I don't make a huge splash and flop.